God is Amazing

It's just like I said. I can never count the amount of blessing God has given to me, or the numerous things He has done in my life. All I can say is I am ever so thankful to have such a truly great savior, best friend and hero. It's so true that God will never ever leave you or forsake you no matter what on earth you think you might be going through, how close you might be to becoming so far away or slipping, or even when you hide from Him. No matter what you do, God is still right there, never leaving your side, loving and protecting you through the good times and the bad. I honestly believe that God has saved my life more than one time (besides when I became a Christian). I was told in Novemeber that scientifically speaking there is absolutely no way that I (or the other girls in my cabin at snowball did not die 3 hours before we woke up in the CO leak/poisoning. I know I have never ever felt like that in my life. I know when I was chillin in that ambulence, still outside of cabin I that I felt closer to God than I think I ever have before and more.. comfortable with the fact that I was surely going to Heaven when I died.. what I mean is there wasn't a doubt in my mind at that moment that if God took anymore (which would have been the rest) of my breath away, that I'd just meet Him at His side and I was comfortable with that.. that i seriously was "dying". There was this conversation and vision in my head too. I don't want to say what it was like though because it was so trippy and personal I guess but all I remember is seeing my friends for what i honestly thought was going to be the last time and saying I love you.. and thanking God for the things he's done in my life. Obviously it wasn't my time cuz I made it and so did every other girl in that cabin including 2 good friends and one of my good guy friend's little sister. I am just so thankful we were all ok. That was one of the worst yet interesting and almost cool experiences of my life... a real near-death-experience.. and God was RIGHT THERE i'm telling you He was RIGHT THERE with me. But I know he's with me everyday.. at all moments and in everything I do. I guess I've just been extra thankful as I look around and see what's going on in the lives of myself and others. Even though things might be crappy as can be at home most times.. I have a family that loves me..a mother that loves me to death, 2 sisters and 3 brothers.. all of them are my REAL family..and cousins. I have friends that love me that would do anything for me. I have so much going for me even if I don't wake up everday and see it. Some people see me as an overachiever but I guess I just really care about where I'm going in life. It's not that I care too much it's just that I always want to be the best I can be no matter what. I run track now and I get fed up with the girls who just stop and walk when they "get tired". To me I think I always have to push myself to make myself better. YES IT IS GOING TO HURT ME I know that.. thats how you get stronger. My friend even threw up at practice i was so proud lol but anyway I've had SO much determination and motivation lately just to go at everything hard. I've been doing things I never really thought I could do... getting things done, finishing what I start. I have to say esp. with track I thought I was going to quit 2 or 3 days later but it's been a little while now and I like it cuz it feels like it's getting better and easier. Plus I like running.. people ask me how can i like it and i say how can you not if you're on the team but anyway. Soccer baby once conditioning starts.. but track practice is so much more intense i will take all those girls down once we start conditioning. It's not about that but I've got this competitive spirit this year. I want to win it sooooooo bad! I actually care about State and regionals and sectionals. I KNOW for a fact we can do it, because we are going to try, and we are going to work and suffer and practice until we get it and until we are disciplined as a team.. and whoever is captain whatever.. but I will make sure of it. Go hard or go home.. I guess I'm a "real athlete" now. It all started when I had to suffer watching the football team goin down this year. No we're going to go in BELIEVING we can do it because we can, and we will. When you believe you can achieve LOL. Like it says in Phil. 4:13 "I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who gives me strength" so check it out.. we're gonna kick butt. And I hope that we can love each other and be a team and a family cuz that just makes it better. I love soccer so much and I love the girls on the team last year I just hope they can get along.. dun dun dun dun.. So now I just thank God for the good spirit He has seriously given me. I just want to try and achieve and do good things and thats all.. my attitude has been so positive I dunno where it came from but it's awesome and it makes every day I wake up that much better. He's the best ever. Really.