I am having such a hard time.... I cannot go on without her. And I can't stand watching it happen. I am so lost, so confused, and so with unexplainable sadness. I knew in my heart for a long time this would happen... but I am so, so lost. I dunno what to do, where to go, or how to keep on loving. No matter what I do, besides pray, it feels hopeless. God IS enough... but it hurts that I know nothing I can dream of doing can change this situation. I'm so lost.